How do I kill my lapido? ual desires?

I need a drug to kill my mood, I can't stop thinking about it, i'm sick of it I want it dead. To make things worse I have sudden s. Lol I cnt stop thinking about it. But everyguy that I like I think about ******* them (so ashamed)not to mention I have people staring at me. Lol even my teach and doctor I think about (sooo ashamed) I'm picky with the type of men. I need help it's controlling mylife nonstop fantasies, u know if I had a hot tan guy to my bed where I can release this pent up energy that would be nice but these are one of the many fantasies.....sigh. Im afraid this will lead to something worse like having forreal!!! Help me I want to kill my drive before I lose control. I'm 18 I had this issue since age 14 I'm from Egypt to make it worse I lived in Canada for 10 years. And I have this for watching guys . I need to focus on my career and kill this thing. Btw it's against my religion to touch urself. Gross I'd rather have it for real lol I'm hopless I even think of my teach and doctor...umm help